I just need to let this out. Unless you’re an ELF or Petals, no need to read this.
(photo credits to : petalicious.tumblr.com)
So, it was already announced that Heechul is going to the army in 9 days.
In freaking 9 days. I don’t even have any idea how unprepared I am for all these not-so-good news.
An idol which much or less has been filling a little spot in my heart will leave. My virtual best friend. The one who tries his hard to entertain people, who doesn’t let himself being dictated of what to do and what not to do. The one who has involved helping me to stand up in those hardest times I had to go through.I haven’t known him for so long, but his presence has already been important since the day I first noticed him.
For those who don’t know and yet still reading this, I do feel silly for being sad and moreover crying over a person whom I don’t even know personally, and perhaps, I won’t know. When people around me are sad because of complicated things like their mutual love problems, or even family problems, or world peace, I’m freaking sad because of a particular person who knows that I’m here, but doesn’t know who I am.
This post is dedicated to all my ELF and petals fellows. Who cried together with me this morning on twitter and tumblr and allkpop. Those people whose lives have also been affected by this person.
I’m just very used to his antiques, the way he talks, the way he defends his friends despite the world judging him, the way he always gives an honest answer, the way he smiles, the way he creeps, the way he entertains people in shows, the way he fights for things that he knows are right, the way he becomes himself, the way he tweets like there’s no tomorrow, the way he befriends all people in the industry, the way he doesn’t give a fuck for people who hate him. All inspire me. And two years are just long, man. Okay he’s not going to die. I may be exaggerating. But yeah, I don’t even care. I just need to let it out.
If now I can be myself, and be who I am, he did a quarter of the work. All those amazing people like Mother Theresa, Dalai Lama, Soekarno, Sri Mulyani or others may affect my mentality and my feelings for bigger things like humanity or nationalism. But him, this Kim Heechul, has taught me to be my self, to be human, to be proud of myself, to be loyal to my friends, to basically survive in dealing with people.
All that I can say right now is, I feel relieved just because I have a chance to know you. I think I love you like I love my own best friends. You inspire many people, and you better do the best and work hard in doing the public service. All the best for you, oppa.
PS 1 : Don’t ever say things like “you don’t have to wait for me” to your fans. because we will, bitch.
PS : People may call me exaggerating, some of my friends even said so, but if I were to have a set of criteria for people to be my best friends, I would call them who understand and tolerate my feelings and even cheer me up right now are my best friends. Because those who don’t, I’m quite certain, don’t know me that well.
