Hello. Anyone remembers me?
It’s been a while, hasn’t it? I haven’t been writing anything since Suju’s 8th anniversary last November and that is not without a reason. I’d been so caught up with school (like, what’s new?) until last month. Had a group project which I ended up doing alone, not that it really matters since I’m satisfied enough with the result. But the main reason I haven’t been writing is….. because I broke my laptop.
So as most of my family, friends, and even my blog readers have already noticed, I am terribly clumsy. I spoil almost everything I touch, especially when it comes to electronics.
So to shorten the explanation, I myself don’t know how I managed to do this, but my laptop’s battery and its adapter broke down and to make it even worse, it broke down three days before the due day of my project (thankfully I’d already saved it in my phone so I could finish it using a friend’s laptop).
*Recently I also cracked my phone’s screen but I can’t tell the details since that was a very painful experience >:(*
Anyway, I got a new laptop ^^ Big thanks to my parents who’ve been nothing but wonderful to such a child like me ^^
A month ago, I moved to a dorm which is almost an hour away from my campus. I don’t feel burdened though since I am finally able to save some money. Living in a flat proved to be a tough experience, especially if only two people bore all the rent costs and all the jazz ;_;
My new dorm is in another side of the city. In contrast to my old flat, my current dorm is located in a super quiet neighborhood with only a car or two passing when it’s past nine in the evening. The neighborhood might be uncrowded but the dorm itself, is packed. There are five blocks which ‘shelter’ approximately six hundred students each. However I cannot even complain since I don’t pay anything to stay here as I am under scholarship and the facilities are actually not bad. Rooms are not unreasonably small and we have 24/7 free and fast internet. There’s a laundry room and study room on each floor and that’s satisfying enough.
My roommates are all Crimean and Ukrainian. They are neat and they also seem nice (I don’t have a say on this since I’d only stayed with them for five days before they all left for holiday). They normally talk to each other in Ukrainian and Russian but they avoided to make me uncomfortable by talking in Turkish whenever I was around. So yeah, so far everything’s been good :D
I actually missed Aylar and Gizem so much since I’m so used to seeing their annoying faces, having stupid conversations, and hearing their ‘offfff’s and ‘askim’s daily. I met Gizem just some days before she left for holiday, we had some coffee and talked a bit. However, her last question to me was “Do you have something which you’re so obsessed with that you would give the world and overcome your limits for it?” that I could not answer immediately.
I was silent while thinking for an answer. It was difficult to contemplate such thing that I finally realized I have no such thing in my life. I am so comfortable with everything. I don’t really have long-term targets. I mean, I do school quite well, though not amazingly, and I try my best at everything but I really don’t know the reason I do them beside believing that they are the right thing to do as a responsible human being that I’m trying hard to be. I guess I’m so focused on not disappointing everyone (esp my parents) and I forget to think about what I want to do for myself. Well, I guess that’s life. I don’t think I am wrong for thinking this way and I am content enough to live for others :)
My GPA is actually surprising XD I don’t think I worked hard enough plus the classes were much harder compared to classes in the previous term. God still loves me I guess. Alhamdulillah :)
There is some life cycle that I don’t want to follow, but I still need to. I hate losing people that I love or I used to love, but I need to be not around them in order to keep my life on the right track. I still can’t hate anyone and it’s not like I want to. Sometimes, letting people go or slip away from your life is good for your mental health :D This is exactly what’s been happening in my life lately and I don’t regret it at the slightest.
As I have written on my facebook : This term is gonna be hardcore!!
I am taking 40 out of 45 credits (my school uses ECTS, google if you have no clue and are curious!), I am applying for Erasmus program and I’m entrusted to be on the board of PPI Turki (Indonesian Students’ Association in Turkey). This situation is honestly ironic since I’ve always wanted to only focus on my study especially after I arrived in Turkey but my dad encouraged me to just give it a shot. So I will try to do my best. Wish me luck!
Oh my God what have I been writing? It sounds like a homework of a middle school student XD
Anyway good luck to everyone! Ready for school? Yiiihaaaa :D